Hijacking my own blog…

I don’t get a lot of feedback regarding what I have written and I don’t let that concern me.

However, my posts may be more sporadic in the next couple of months (or even longer).

As most of you, my readers, know, I am in a long-term battle with Multiple Sclerosis. Unfortunately, even though I have a mild case of Relapsing-Remitting Multiple Sclerosis (RRMS), I am still 15 plus years into the progression.  I can no longer ignore the constant pins and needles on the left side of my body, the memory gaps, and the coordination issues that have been slowly becoming more pronounced as the disease progresses.

I was hospitalized last weekend after an extended “on automatic” where I wasn’t aware of having driving about 10 mi/16 km and then having a brief loss of consciousness. A battery of testing showed no signs of bleeding on the brain but also no active MS activity. However, the sheer amount of time that I was battling but not being treated has caught up with me.

To sum up the details of the weekend, I am now to walk with a cane at all times. It was “suggested” that I considering giving up my driver’s license as well.

Right now, between the physical issues and the crushing mental anguish of this happening, I’m in no place to write. Hell, I’m barely living at this point. I am going through the motions of what I have to do, but there’s no joy, no tedium, it’s just doing it.

As much as I don’t want to do it, I’m going to have to figure out what my options are related to work. I am hoping I can take a sabbatical from work, even if it’s only a couple of weeks so that I can get some intense mental help as I’m dangerously close to losing it.

Update: Missing in Action

Sorry for the gap again in Tales of the Cabin and my writing in general.

I spent the week after Thanksgiving in the hospital, got out, then promptly got a cold which wiped me out for another week.  Right as the cold started, I had a procedure done that has helped immensely and I should be starting physical therapy next week.

I’ve also found the only thing worse than long(ish) term writer’s block…is when it breaks.  I’ve got several parts of Tales in my head….along with the continuation of my NaNoWriMo 2018 stumble-start, and a there’s a fantasy story with a character named Mythalifax bounding along with all the rest.

What does this mean for you, my readers (both of you)?  There will be a lot more regular updates, weekly posts, and general mayhem appearing here .

PS: As some you know, in real life, I’m battling Multiple Sclerosis and degenerative disc disease in my low back that causes left leg paralysis and excruciating pain as I go into one of these attacks, followed by a short period of numbness/inability to walk, then another period of excruciating pain.  — If you want to help me get through these attacks and the mountain of medical expenses that are sapping my day-to-day living expenses – I have a GoFundMe set up that helps me get through these financially stressful times at https://www.gofundme.com/63kqxg

 

*phew*

i’m tired.  I’m still drained from my MS battles.  I was diagnosed in early September 2017 and from then until late April 2018, I spent most of that time either in the hospital or wishing I was dead.

It’s now been two months since we found the right medication combination that is working well for me.  I feel much better and having been having MS symptoms since April.

The downside of all this, I used up all of my FMLA time until October 2018 and there is now a gaping crater where my sick/vacation time used to be.

I really need to take a vacation where I can just unwind, relax, and finally get back into writing each week.  I’m missing too many flash (series) weekly posts and I feel terrible about it.

I’m also working on polishing up two of my flash series into full blown short stories.  If I can get them all worked up, I’m hoping to combine them into a two-fer e-book and actually *gulp* publish my first book.

For those wondering, I’m currently working on “The Shaman’s Gift” and “A Change of Scenery”.  I’ve given serious consideration to “To Be Determined” as well.  If I do decide to bring it up to full story status, I may just release three books at once and then see what happens.

Six months…

Wow.  I’ve not written anything in six months.  I knew it had been too long but I didn’t realize it had been six months.

I’m currently in remission with my MS, I’ve returned to work and am slowly adjusting back to that routine.  I’m hoping to edit a couple of my flash series and turn them into full fledged stories.

The editing process will hopefully re-ignite my creativity.